Oh yes.....it has. Oh my. A year? Since the pandemic started....

Why does it feel like it JUST happened a million years ago? HA. Time is strange. Time is subjective. What is it even? I won't even go into reflection. This shit is still processing...being uploaded into the cloud of my brain. Hopefully the skies will clear up soon. 

They are clearing up, actually. Slowly and surely. 

Right now, I'm sitting on the porch of my apt in Columbia Heights. My dog, Benji, is happily gnawing on a frozen Kong toy that's been stuffed with wet food. It's beautifully warm outside, alternating from putting my sweater back on because my arms are getting toasty from the eager sunlight, or because this slight windchill has me saying "oooOOOoo, it's a leeetle cheeeely weeely!". 

I'm listening to a Discover Weekly playlist on Spotify, currently "White Wall" by Satoshi and Makoto is playing and it's taking me to super lax headspace with a tinge of upbeat energy. 

I'm out here because I'm in a determined state to get my shit together. Lately it's felt like a constant state of it, but I can feel all the pieces coming together. I like to think this is just a result of a growth mindset....I'm always looking to level up. But since I'm still healing from life traumas, I have just the right amount of insecurity to give my personality some charm ;)

This is about discipline and working day by day, building habits. I've gotten to a place where I can take care of my physical and mental health (working out, eating balanced meals, getting enough sleep...the works), so I'm ready to make some moves. 

Oh but quick life updates: 
1) have a dog!!! He's a Silky Terrier Mix. He was a foster fail. I love Benji. <3
2) I left my last job working at the acting conservatory. It was the right choice for me and I'm grateful.
3) I'm currently working for a tech company that hires actors to improvise and create simulations using VR and AI to help people develop soft skills in the workplace. It's a really badass job and I still can't believe I got it. It's only PT for now, so I have this extra time to do more for myself!

Those are the big ones. 

I'll be writing more about some things I'm currently invested in like therapy, Clubhouse, fitness, and building a business. WoooOOOOoooT. 

I never thought I would be here writing in a blog. I mean don't get me wrong, I've ALWAYS wanted to, but I always had doubt in my ability to one: sit down and do an activity for an extended period of time without getting distracted and two: share my inner workings to any extent without the fear of someone judging me negatively. And me finally writing in a blog doesn't necessarily mean I'm 100% over it, but the awareness is there and I'm ready to work toward overcoming those fears. I'm basically functioning under the impression that no one will actually read this. LOL. If anyone who doesn't know me personally somehow lands on this blog then I welcome you. Thank you for reading and listening. 

I'm Jordanna. I'm an actor. I've been acting since I can remember. I fall into the category of "there wasn't a single moment I decided I was going to act for a living". It just happened. And let me be clear, acting isn't my ONLY living. At the moment, it's quite far from it actually (yet it feels closer in my heart, weird how that happens!). The pandemic is putting a hard damper on anything that brings a physical community together and theatre prettyyyy much hardcore revolves around that sooo....we're having to put on our thinking hats to stay relevant and keep theatre going. My money-making (and I use that term loosely) and full-time gig is working at an acting conservatory. I'm one of two full-time employees that help keep the thing running as best as possible. 

I'm originally from Phoenix, AZ. Moved to DC to go to Georgetown University, barely graduated and decided to stay in DC after telling myself I was gonna move to NYC or LA for the last four years. Turns out DC is pretty badass when it comes to the arts and I've found a home here. HOWEVER, I'm definitely still looking to make some moves...financially supported, calculated moves. I hope grad school will whisk me away in the next year or two and I'll end up somewhere new and work from there. 

I'm first-generation American. My whole family is from Mexico. Funny enough, my brother definitely gives off the more "American" vibes....whatever that means anymore. We are well-assimilated. We had to be. 

​I'm entering a new part of life where I'm actively working toward getting in touch with my roots, my thoughts surrounding my culture, and learning how to cook my childhood meals. Most importantly I'm leaning in to how my skills, talent, and craft can create change. I don't have any answers, but if this pandemic has given me anything that I strongly appreciate--it's a deeper sense of self. And that is a privilege I must not take for granted. 

We, Artists, have way more to offer to society. Though we have to seek our empowerment through our tight communities and ourselves. And for some of us, that is a long and arduous process. Be patient with yourself and when you'r ready, you'll know. 

This is the space I have created for myself to exist as I truly am in every moment....and embrace the shit out of it.